B e a r i n g Witness

As I write this, Nick and I are sitting at Starbucks. He's sitting across from me working on policies and procedures for our business....

Nick uttered (or sometimes yelled) these words to me more times than I can possibly count. "You don't understand!" became a daily phrase...

Dear Daisy, You were the first one to know. You were my first confidant. You knew from the beginning that something was wrong. I watched...

Alcohol began to play a role in coping with Nick's mental illness - for both of us. That's not to say that either one of us ever met the...

May 1, 2020 will always be a day Nick and I celebrate. Beyond it being my mom's birthday (hi, Mom!) it's the day Nick started his next...

I've been delaying this topic for a while. It's hard to talk about for a multitude of reasons. Before I go on, I want to make it...

In 2018, Nick lost his dad, family dog, and then his aunt - all within a 3-month period. A few days after his aunt passed, we were...

The kidney stone debacle was behind us. We were sitting at just over $30,000 in medical debt. Nick's mental health was at an all-time...

Hi everyone! My name is Nick. I'm Erica’s husband. I have OCD, otherwise known as obsessive-compulsive disorder. In short, OCD means that...

The prescriptions were for percocets and another drug used for kidney stones; although I forget which one. I put the prescriptions in my...

Around this time, Nick had started mentioning thoughts of driving his car off one of the Colorado mountain roads with hopes he wouldn't...

My memory of the timeline of events gets hazy after we moved to Colorado. I was so overwhelmed that I truthfully have no idea if my...

It was finally time to leave Florida behind. We were trading the beach for the mountains, the humidity for dryness, and sea level for...

I was starting to see hope with Nick's video game addiction. Graduation had gone well and he had finally realized and admitted that video...

When we showed up to the graduation venue, Nick was on edge. I could feel it. I was still worried, but as we got inside and started to...

It was finally time to graduate. Nearly three and a half years of hard work and dedication were coming to a close. We had taken all 5...

When Nick was hospitalized, I was already in therapy. I was also knee-deep into Brené Brown's work on vulnerability. I had just finished...

Shortly after Nick's video game addiction started, we started fighting daily. I was quick to point out that the amount of time he spent...

I have mentioned that I didn't tell friends and family what was going on with Nick in the early stages. There's a handful of reasons for...

So we Baker Acted Nick. I got a call from him about an hour after the police drove off with him. He was screaming at me. "I can't believe...